I wanted to take a sec and Thank the Lord for the joy and peace He is providing me. I am so glad to have given my life to HIm and He is indeed faithful. My heart is so joyful.
May the joy in the Lord be your stregnth.
How Great Is Our God… January 8, 2009
Ya know, since these last 8 or so months since I have been actively pursuing Christ (not just being content as a benchwarmer) it has just been amazing. I’ve been in the middle of the most difficult and trying times in my life yet I have peace and joy.
God has been so utterly faithful and He is continually working all around me everyday. I was always so scared to really dive in head first and give it ALL up to Him but since I did…holy cow it’s been awesome!
I don’t know why I was so scared. I truly understand the phrase “a peace that passes all understanding.” Peace has been a very difficult thing for me to achieve in all of my life but not now. Not after simply knowing He loves me and will protect me in all situations. Life won’t be full of daisies (it sure isnt now) but eveen through it all…it’s worth it.
A Cool Realization September 29, 2008
Tonight I spent some time going back and reading the pages I had written here about who I am or I should say who I was when all of this began.
It is amazing what letting God take control can do for a life. I have been gaining more and more confidence in Him to the extent that I barely recognize the insecure, confused and sad girl that started this blog. I am learning to break free from old bondage, find the true source of joy and truly feel like me again.
My days are not perfect and I don’t toot sunshine but my goodness, life is good.
Happyinees, Perspective, Joy, Peace May 1, 2008
(Yes…I totally know I spelled Happiness totally wrong but when I looked up from typing it was just too funny to erase!! Enjoy on my behalf!)
These are just some of the words that I have been pondering lately. It has been a tough couple of weeks for me. Just battling staying positive and all that.
There are just some people around me who after years can’t seem to get their act together no matter how much it hurts them and those around them. I don’t want to be that person. I do want to try and keep a soft heart toward them and show compassion. This is sometimes a major issue for me.
Any suggestions for finding compassion in this situation?
Well That’s A New One!!! April 22, 2008
I just had the greatest moment. Here I have boasting about how joyous and inspired I have become and how I have dug out of the depths of darkness and negativity…right?
So I asked for comments…which I STILL really enjoy after the last one…! I have to admit I let out in an audible, happy and ironic laugh. I received this interesting and neat comment from an unknown reader who made the point to say at the end…”Also, your blog is mean.”
Seriously?!!! Ahhhh! And all this time I thought I was making progress! Go figure! Maybe it is true that sarcasm just doesnt work in writing. I have a pretty terrible way of communicating humor. I missed out on that gene…well…not necessarily because it never really existed in our pool! (See, Carla made a funny!)
So here’s to you unknown blogger commenter guy! Keep it up and tell is straight up! Likin’ it.
Mrs. Lady Jane February 28, 2008
I met Mrs. Lady Jane today by accident. No, literally…she hit our car.
I was at the docks waiting to go test my dads new super cool boat out when it took longer than expected so the girls decided to go get food for everyone. So my friend Kenessa, my brother’s girlfriend,Jenny and I hopped into Kenessa’s car to get some grub. K drove and I sat shotgun with Jenny in the backseat of the compact car. Anyway, on our way back (we were only like 4 miles from the dock) all of the sudden we look over and notice that the car to our right (it was only a 2 lane road) was coming over and in that slight second you think “surely they will correct their mistake and get back…crash!” We all screamed as this little old lady sandwiched us with her big old station wagon.
Immediately I went into emergency mom mode and checked on Kenessa’s ability to hold it all together (by the way…she handled it like a rockstar) and began to asses the situation and lead her off to the side of the road. After realizing we were all unharmed my focus went to “who is this person and what am I going to have to fight against to prove this was not our fault!” Well, out stepped sweet old Jane. Sure, she was old as dirt and probably shouldnt even have had a license… but I could not help but reach out. She fumbled and shook and just apologized profusely. She was so upset with herself and embarrassed.
We made the appropriate phone calls and waited for the police. It must have been slammin’ in the ghettos of the old Palm Coast because they sure did take their time. So during our good hour with Mrs. Jane we began to get to know her story. After not too long I realized this meeting was no “accident.”
Mrs. Jane was on her way home from visiting her dying husband in hospice. He is suffering from demetia. She has 2 family members left but they live across the nation and in her words her and her husband were not fortunate enough to have children, so she is alone.
She had made a statement that she had never been in an accident before so me, trying to lighten her load made a comment about what a great driving record she must have and she should be proud. Well, she says (only to break my sappy heart) that she has never driven much because her husband alwaysdid that for her and now he is unable. How romantic and tragic at the same time. (She STILL shouldnt have that dang license though! hehaaa)
So after our time together and caring and loving on Mrs Lady Jane we said goodbye but not before we shouted to her “Oh, by the way, you have just adopted 3 grand daughters today!” She smiled and almost cried. We told her to call us if she needed assistance or just a friend. She seemed so genuinely appreciative and was happy to tell us that she would take us up on our offer.
Now, we are not superheroes or ultra wonderful people. We are average, young girls but it was neat to watch God use us. The whole time I was with her I kept wanted to invite her to church…granted the bass and drums may but her bedside to her husband…I think she would love the company. (I thought I might wait til after this Sunday’s pornography/sex study…but then I guesss you never know! so kidding.)
You just never know someone’s story. I wonder what it would be like if we took the time to get to know one another. How many people could you reach and touch? Do you trust God that He will make you capable to offer something so great to one another?
It was a neat experience and so funny that all 4 of us walked away from this situation feeling love, trust, respect, compassion, pride, and so much joy. It was a freakin’ car accident! Hello? Did it shake our brains a little too much? How cool when you let yourself see the light in the midst of a dark situation. Give it a try! You may surprise yourself! I did.
Goodnight, Mrs. Lady Jane. We will say special prayers for you tonight.
