Favorite Part Of The Day June 3, 2008

Having a few hours to myself while Lauren babysat.  I mean, I ran errands the whole time but still…I was actually alone!  Holy crap.

 

Oh and how could I forget…rushing to the gym (for the 2nd time today!) to get there while the Kids Klub was still open…pull into the parking lot…gathering all of my things…reaching onto the floorboard of my truck to get my….shoes…shoes?…um…where are my shoes?  Oh, crap.  I forgot to bring shoes!  Dummy.

It’s A New Day May 19, 2008

So I choosing the high road this morning…cause I could easily be bitter after the kind of late night I had.

Today we are getting back into our routine.  Can’t focus anywhere else.  Back to the gym and on schedule.

OK too funny…My little boy just waltzed out of his sisters room singing “take care of my hairbrush, take care of my hairbrush” (from the kids series, VeggieTales”) and then proceeded to tell me that what he had in his hands was a “Bokin Naca Bokin Naca”  commonly known as…Legos.  Apparently when they are Bokin Nacas they fly?!

Oh Crap. April 2, 2008

So I have totally been slcking on losing this baby weight.  Actually “slacking” just does not do it justice.  Um, I have gained 4 pounds.  Awesome.  Thats dedication if I have ever seen it.

So I get a call yesterday from my crazy best friend, Apple.  She is getting married in mid May.  The whole point to losing this weight was to be in shape to wear the strapless bridesmaid dress!  Well…now comes this icing on the cake…mmmm…cake…no!  and she tells me that the wedding is going to be featured on an episode of tv show Platinum Weddings!  Oh Crap!  Say it with me!  OH CRAP!

She yelled at me and told me to bust my a$$ in the gym cause the camera adds 10 pounds!  Yeah, thanks Apple.  Well I think that is the kick in the butt I needed! 

So I got a great work out in today and it is chicken and veggies all the way for me for the next 5 weeks!!!  AAhhhh!  Here’s to crash dieting!!!

Much Needed Rest March 4, 2008

Today I dropped the kids off at the sitter and was going to go to the gym and then to my moms to help her clean.  Well, didnt quite make it…to any of them.

I went home to change, laid down…and didnt get up until 2pm!  Are you kidding me?  Wow!  I could have slept longer but I felt so guilty for blowing my mom off!  It was awesome though!  It is like 8:30pm and I am ready to go right back to bed! 

Now I am watching American Idol and I am over it.  It is way to scripted and rehearsed now.  I liked it when the people had no experience.  Now everything is too polished.  Whatever.  Dude is singing Meatloaf or something…definately got to change it now…Must go.

OK, I’m Back February 26, 2008

I tech my little boy how to stop freaking out by breathing in and out really deep until you feel better.  Well I had to practice what I preach!  It was crazy how knotted up my stomach gets with anger and frustration.  I am pretty proud of myself for learning to deal with it though.  I just can’t afford to lose my cool and have my kids think that is how to properly deal with stress.  I am in charge of molding their little ways of life.  What a big responsibility!

I feel much better… I hung with my favorite tv personal trainer, Bob, for 2 hours and got inspired for tomorrows work out!  Those people on The Biggest Loser rock my world!  I don’t think I could do what they do!

I did cheat tonight at my weekly daddy date at Beef O Brady’s.  (I hate that name.)  But they have a killer brownie dessert!  I work hard all week and eat as well as I can without being crazy food nazi so I do not feel guilty at all for endulging once a week.  I am staying in the real world…and there are brownies in the real world!  See, every Tuesday night my dad takes me and the kids to this local wing joint that does a fun kids night where the kids can run and play!  Poor dad, it is sooo loud and crazy in there…NOT his thing.  But I appreciate that he does it for us.  It is something we look forward to every week.  I didnt get much one on one time being one of four kids so it is nice to start now!  Thanks Dad!

Anyway, off to bed!  I am sleepy!

10 Pounds in 10 Weeks February 26, 2008

Yep.  And that’s not all.  My final goal is more like 15 to 20 pounds but hey, you gotta start somewhere!

So here is my plan…I joined a gym about 3 or 4 weeks ago and have to my own surprise been there about 5 days a week every week!  (with the exception of a couple days when my kids were too sick!)  I met with a trainer and he seems to think this “10 in 10″ is possible.  Hmmm?  You see, my motivation is this… my best friend is getting married!  In Vegas!  There is NO way I am letting ANYTHING stop me from enjoying myself to the FULLEST!

I have always been pretty fit and this is tough for me.  I know some of you are like “shut up, stupid girl!”  But this is a problem of mine and I don’t normally put my wants and needs even close to visible in my life.  So…I’m doing it.  I am learning to balance life.  It is OK for me to focus on me once in a while.  I deserve to feel beautiful and attractive for myself and my husband.  Not that he doesnt love and accept me as is, but if I don’t feel it…it will affect him too!

So…I am putting the call out..anybody have any desire to get on board with me?  The wedding is May 10th but I plan to make this a lifestyle thing that lasts.  If you ever get inspired…give me a call!  I can use the motivation most of the time!  Lets go for a walk.  Got kids?  Let’s take them for a stroll!  And if you want to feel better about yourelf…let’s take an aerobic class together!  (I have no rhythm and 2 left feet!)

I had the most humbling experience with all of this!  I was enduring my “assesment” with a trainer (free when you join!) and he brought out the calipers!  Anyone familiar with this lovely device?  The basically pinch your fat in the most embarrassing places to see how much body fat you have…yack!  I’m not totally clear if it was more motivating or depressing!

So…keep me accountable!  You can’t offend me!  (Well, you probably could…but don’t)  So, with that… I am off to the gym. 

Treadmill Etiquette February 25, 2008

1. Treadmill etiquette.  You know when you are working out and someone comes up beside you and begins running alongside?  Well, make sure they do not sweat profusely.  I have a “friend” we will call him (I use the term loosly since all I know about him is that he sweats…a lot.) that always happens to be running at the same time as me.  Well, you would think this would be nice, right?  A running buddy.  Oh my goodnes… they dude is like 6 foot 6 and as he runs his elbows and fingers spray me and my little 5 foot 2 frame with his over-sized beads of sweat!  Ugh! I mean, the guy has a towel! Use it. 

It is like being in a shower.  Except it is a strange dudes sweat and you are in public and you seem to walk away dirtier than when you started.  So what would you do?  How would you handle that?  I mean, the guy seems like a nice dude and all but c’mon!  It ain’t no secret, buddy.   (I feel so impersonal…we will call him…Vladimir. I think that is what he looks like.)

Okay, second part of training…I am not a particularly “politically correct” person…so I will try to be very diplomatic in how I say this.  I tend to be blunt for the sake of being descriptive but definately do not want to offend anyone.  …Overweight people are not the only ones who are insecure at the gym and quite frankly..sometimes I feel discriminated against because I am not fat enough!  Let me explain… (I am not basing this story on fact…just observation but I feel I am correct)  Today I was walking along (no Vladimir in sight…) and there was a woman next to me who was pretty heavy set.  Well, I think it is awesome to see people in the gym and very encouraging.  They are taking control of their lives back.  So anyway, I start walking and I notice her kinda begin to appear uncomfortable with me being next to her.  Like I had cooties or something.  Well, it was not more than a minute til she up and left… only to go a few treadmills down next to another woman who was similar in frame and restart her work out. (Not appearing to even know this woman.  Did she think I did’nt see her?  Did I smell?  Was it my pink hair?  I have often felt like some (key word…some) women in the gym will not give me a chance to say hello or  have a conversation because they immediately judge meas being “one of them” meaning a snobby young “skinny” (I use that term lightly) girl.  Well…it hurts my feelings.  You can not and must not judge people on appearance.  At least I always have Vladimir.

Losing My Cool February 22, 2008

I have no idea what is going on but my super sleeper kid has had the roughest week at night and I am growing weary…  If you know me well, you know I do NOT operate well on low sleep.  It sucks.

Last night sucked the worst. My kids share a bedroom so if I don’t hurry to get to my son, he will wake up my daughter….grrr.  I fly solo during the week so it is particularly hard monday thru friday. 

Yesterday I was out to lunch with a girlfriend and her little boy she babysits and I totally surprised myself!  I am a pretty modest person when it comes to language and speech but for whatever reason…something happened so quickly that I found myself almost literally biting my tongue so I wouldnt burst out with one of the worst 4 letter word you could think of.  I couldnt believe how it almost flew out!  I sat there in like dibelief!  (I kinda had a good laugh about it later in the day!)  But at that moment I looked at the waitress and pulled the old “check please!”

Sleep is precious.  I miss it.  I am so desperate for time to myself to go at a slow pace that I think I am going to pack up for the gym extra early this morning!  (they have free childcare!)

Disclaimer to all who know me…if you happen to run into me anytime soon and I look like a trainwreck… just smile politely and keep walking!  I may bite your head off.

Motivation, or lack thereof February 12, 2008

So I am slowly coming out of my slump of poor me parties but am having such a hard time finding motivation for… well, anything.  I am still in my pajamas, well, I did change my pants from jammies to sweats…. only because my son spilled his apple juice on me…  I should be finishing up at the gym and on the way to do something with my kiddies.  But nope.  I am sitting here with you… thinking about what I should be doing.

I would rather watch the laundry pile up along with the dishes, and every other responsibility than well, move.  Maybe by tomorrow I will back to myself.  Lets hope.  Even I don’t want want to hang out with me right now.

My poor sister in law came over for her lunch break yesterday.  I warned her… and yet she came anyway.  Poor thing.  She just took it.  All my crap. Just listened.  It actually helped a lot.  I’m not sure she will ever come again… but it was great while it lasted!