Running into an old friend that lifted my sprits and offered great encouragement! Thanks, Kel!
Cooking With Lizard Fun May 21, 2008
I swear its a good thing there is no reason for camera crews to follow me around during my days…!
Just now I found myself with a huge plastic juice pitcher and a cake spatula chasing my little lizard friend who has been stuck in my house for days!
The best part was that I was talking to him the whole time. Ya know, lizards need some encouragement too!
Happy Girl April 4, 2008
It has been interesting this last week trying to keep a more positive outlook on everyday stuff. I have to say it takes effort but it is worth it.
I didnt think it was possible but there I go with being negative! Every now and then I get poopy but I have a little chat with myself and I hop back on the happy train. (Which after saying that sentence makes me sound like I need to have the happy train take me to the looney bin)
My friend Christie blogged about people whining too much..hmmm… I felt that nagging feeling as I was reading. Could it be? Nah…not me! I don’t know if I whine but more so am just grumpy. Either way…I don’t want to bring people down! It’s happy Carla time! (Until I forget my meds the looney bin made me take home!)
A Good Friend March 25, 2008
I like to name names. I like to call people out…for not really bad but mostly for catching someone doing something good. I truly admire my friend Gentry. He lives really far away and we very rarely talk. Every now and again we get a chance to hang and it is always pure fun and simply awesome.
I appreciate people like him who are straight up and tell you like it is. He has told me some pretty rough stuff but he does it because he cares. I wanted to publicly say he rocks and their should be more just like him.
Gent, I know you read this and I want to say thanks for always being steady, constant and tough. I appreciate you.
I am trying to tell people when I think something positive of them. I have a hard time complimenting people and I want to change that. Guess this is kind of a radical switch! Watch out!
Not For The Weak March 3, 2008
So this is something I rarely talk about anymore. But I am at a point where I question my beliefs in this matter. Tell me what you think.
I have a dear friend whom I have known longer than anyone else in my life besides my family. We played as kids, planned our weddings to out favorite New Kid On The Block, and planned raising our babies together someday.
Well sometime in her teens she took a turn for the worse. She went from the all American Girl next door to a troubled girl who found identity in bad people. She quickly deteriorated and fell harder and faster ever day. Her parents tried desperately to step in and did everything in their power to save her but it was too late. She had made up her mind.
She wasnt out of her teens when she got pregnant with her daughter. She tried cleaning up but it never took. She continued to barely get by and make bad decisions. A couple of years later she found herself pregnant again. By then she was even worse. When her son was 4 months of age she basically asked her mom if she could watch her kids for the night which turned into forever.
Almost 3 years have gone by since that night. She has hit an all time low. She is in jail, again and I am sure it will not be her last. Unfortunatley jail is probably the best place she could be considering the alternatives would be walking the street corner with a pimp.
I never would have thought I would even know anybody with a story like this and this is my best friend. She has done countless terrible things to her family as well as mine. Countless fake attempts to get get clean only to realize she never had any real intentions and it would rip us apart.
I recently received an update on her and it got me thinking about how I feel about her. Last I saw her I was dropping her off at a help center saying good riddance. She had done me and my family wrong one last time and was not going to be made a fool of again. She walked away unaffected.
It breaks my heart that my friend doesnt care that she is hurting me. (Not to even mention her own children and family) It makes me feel like I am not worth anything to her. Like our dreams we planned as kids were just a game. She was my maid of honor but I guess I will never get to be hers like we had planned. I feel abandoned. And the worst part is what she chose over me…a pimp who beats her and random men who abuse her and friends who could never care for her like I do.
I just have a little guilt setting in because I don’t know how to forgive over and over. Iknow I need to but i am confused what to do after that. I have written her off and have made that overly clear to her. On the other hand I still have that deep desire to see her come around and clean up. I wonder if I am doing the right thing. Is this tough love or just being mean?
Her poor parents are getting roped into another upsetting facade as we speak. Now that she is in jail again she starts calling home. (Keep in mind this is the ONLY time they hear from her) Of course she found Jesus…for the 28th time and wants to get her act together. Bull.
Have any of you dealt with stuff like this? Would you continue letting her come back only to probably hurt you again?
Day 1 March 3, 2008
Here I am at Day 1. It has not been too bad. A friend came over with her little boy so it was great that Will had somebody to play with. They are so darn cute!
I had a tough time yesterday at the airport. We dropped Daddy off at the curb and it seemed like Will had no clue until we were ready to drive away. We helped get all of his bags out and gave kisses and hugs and said goodbye. Will then said “Daddy, sit in seat and drive us home!” He was not sure why we would leave Daddy somewhere. After we began to drive away he blew kisses until daddy was out of sight and then it must have hit him that this was not a game. He lost it.
Today he has been telling people “Daddy at oreport!” That is his “airport” it is so funny. And if you ask him where daddy went he says “Weezy-ana” for Louisiana! Isnt that hilarious! He has been telling me all day that daddy will be right back and I don’t know how to explain it.
Anyway, it has been an ok day. Tomorrow we have a sitter so that will be a nice break. Just trying to keep the head up! So far so good. And thank you to everybody who has been so sweet to offer to be there for me. It is what keeps the desperation feeling from collapsing in on me. I am so grateful to be affiliated with Beachside Church. It is the first church I feel comfortable calling a home.
Happy Birthday to You.. February 25, 2008
Happy Birthday to You
Happy BIRTHDAY, dear Drew Powell!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
you can learn more about our super awesome friend drew powell at his blogsite… http://drewpowell.wordpress.com
Frosted Mini Wheat Assesment February 23, 2008
Tags: assesment, cereal, comment, Facebook, friend, Frosted Mini Wheats, frosting, guru, tongue, Trial, verdict
So I was on my Facebook page and noticed an arguement going on between two of my friends regarding the “Frosted Mini Wheat Assesment!” One firmly believed that when eating the yummy cereal you (after many studies and trials) must eat the cereal with the frosting side up toward the roof of your mouth to get the most enjoyment. Well, the other firmly DISagreed with the assesment, stating the frosting MUST be down and on your tongue. Hmmm?
Well, little did they know I am a Frosted Mini Wheat guru. I have many years of tasting under my belt and could OBVIOUSLY end this debate. It is a complete no brainer! The frosting MUST be down and on your tongue! I mean how else can you enjoy the sweet satisfaction? C’mon!
So the argument is still unsettled… I need your help. Please comment on your preference! (Eventhough I already know the right answer!) Seriously… have you tried this experiment? What did you come up with? If any of you noticed…I keep asking for feedback and continue coming up with NOTHING! So c’mon, show yourselves! This is major. We must come up with a final verdict!