Leona Lewis June 12, 2008

She just blows me away.

Too Much Crap June 8, 2008

Not sure for how long but I am putting down the computer and postponing blogging.

I know I won’t be able to articulate this in a way that makes sense but… i can’t get over this “Brain Freeze”. 

There is way too much going on and I am completely overwhelmed. I don’t like to speak or write unless I feel free to say or write exactly what it is I want to say.  I just can’t do that right now.

  

Brain Freeze June 5, 2008

Do you ever have so much to say, so much going on, so much in your head it just freezes?  That’s where I am.

Any suggestions?  Practical ones?

Favorite Part Of The Day June 3, 2008

Having a few hours to myself while Lauren babysat.  I mean, I ran errands the whole time but still…I was actually alone!  Holy crap.

 

Oh and how could I forget…rushing to the gym (for the 2nd time today!) to get there while the Kids Klub was still open…pull into the parking lot…gathering all of my things…reaching onto the floorboard of my truck to get my….shoes…shoes?…um…where are my shoes?  Oh, crap.  I forgot to bring shoes!  Dummy.

Best Article I Have Read In A LONG Time… June 2, 2008

Do You Have A Favorite Fast Food Place?

A few weeks ago I was out in California visiting my girlfriend. We wanted to grab a quick bite to eat before we headed to the beach. So my girlfriend suggested we head over to Quickly or El Pollo Loco.

I thought to myself, maybe we should just go to our usual spots like McDonald’s, Burger King, Taco Bell or Wendy’s. At least I know what type of menu those fast food restaurants are offering.

Being from the east coast I had not heard of either of the fast food restaurants my girlfriend suggested. I figured out that El Pollo Loco is a place that serves chicken, but what in the world is Quickly? Obviously, the name doesn’t give it away. I soon found out that Quickly, is one of the largest tapioca milk tea franchises in the world and that they also serve Chinese food.

Did you favorite fast food restaurant show up on the list below? If not, please tell us about it or try searching for fast food restaurants on AOL Search. Or check out AOL Yellow Pages to find fast food restaurants in your area. If you are curious about the calorie count of some of your favorite fast-food indulgences, check out AOL Food’s gallery of the worst (for you) food in America

Top Searched Fast Food Restaurants on AOL Search:
1. McDonald’s
2. Subway
3. Sonic
4. Burger King
5. Taco Bell
6. Panera Bread
7. Wendy’s
8. Quickly
9. El Pollo Loco
10. Checkers

For those of you who know me…You know my BRC with no rice, please!  EL POLLO LOCO, baby!  I will be the happiest girl if the chain makes it out this way!  i think my sales would keep them afloat.

If Your Looking For Something Deep and Soul Searching… June 2, 2008

keep looking.  This ain’t your place.

Favorite Part Of The Day June 2, 2008

The phone call talked about below in “Sobering Reflections” post. 

Also, running with my kids in the water at the beach.  We laughed our buns off!  Also, being able to walk there straight from church…and be welcome back to church all sandy and wet!  So many good things all rolled into one!

Quote of The Day June 2, 2008

…last night… Will to Babysitter while showing her around his room… “I like Thomas and Toby (trains), and Colbie and Fergie.”  As in Colbie Callait and Fergalicious…oh man.

Sobering Reflection June 1, 2008

At the risk of knowing this person may read this entry and know it was written about them…I still choose to write.  A difficult thing for me…but I trust them.

I had the opportunity to speak to an old friend that I go waaay back with.  Yes, we had parted ways for many years…it seems some things had not changed.  Some for the good, others maybe not so much.

We spoke at legnth about all the ups and downs that life had thrown our way and how we had decided to accept and embrace what we had be given.  I took much comfort in the idea of speaking with someone I felt I had a bond with and who may actually really know me.  For better or for worse.

As much as I truly enjoyed our time together, there was a comment made at the very end of our legnthy conversation that hit me like a ton of bricks.  See, I have a tendency to apologize for myself a lot.  I show my insecurities in social situations..especially when I feel inferior.

As the conversation was wrapping up, I found myself putting myself down…almost in a way of defending myself in case I was coming across unintelligent or foolish.  So, I was called out… A comment was made that was immediately sobering.  It went something to the effect of “Even 8 years later you are still making the same excuses.”  (Not the exact words but as close as I can remember) 

It immediately stopped me in my path.  Here i am (completely naive) thinking that I have been making strides..no, leaps and bounds while growing up and yet, in some ways I am completely the same. 

They were right.  Completely right.   What is it going to take for me to be ok with who I am?  That includes my short comings, imperfections and flaws.  I guess I have not figured out how to “love myself” just yet?  Well, if I have not made any progress in 8 years…where will I be in 8 more years?  Kind of depressing…..yet motivating.

I guess I have a choice here.  I can dwell on the negative aspect or I can love that this has been brought to my attention and begin to figure it out.  I do not want to be complacent or unchanged.  I want to continue developing and reinventing myself.  (not just my hair!)

I feel like an old school warrior back in the day when they had been called out and challenged in front of the crowds!  Well, I accept the challenge! (spoken in an intimidating, strong, and for some reason manly voice…?) 

I need to take this time in my life as a time to wholly seek out my worth and where it comes from and why.  I know the typical church taught answers…but I need to find out in my own way.  for myself.

This should be interesting…especially since I thought I was so far down this road already…geez!  So, thank you, friend, for being a true friend. 

I hope you all will continue visiting the “Who I Am” Page to see what new and fun things I have learned about myself lately. 

I would love to know your thoughts on this…especially if you can identify with these feelings…?  Really, any thoughts or bits of advice are welcome!

Great Night, Cool People June 1, 2008

It’s been so long since I have been able to go out, enjoy some food and music with good friends.  What a great time tonight and a rockstar babysitter too!  Love it when things come together!  Long time overdue!

 I am so proud of my kids too.  To have the perfect children for babysitters makes a momma proud!  Balance is a good thing in life…just figuring it all out now.